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    Friday, January 27th, 2012
    2:20 pm
    Writer's Block: ONTD Games Giveaway
    Mario. He'd keep you in shape.

    Which video game character would you like to have as your real-life BFF?

    One random response will win a $60 Amazon gift card! [Full contest rules here.]

    Don't forget to share your favorite gamer moments on [info]ontdgames at 3 p.m. PST for Free For All Friday (FFAF).

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    Wednesday, January 5th, 2011
    11:04 pm
    Texas
    I spent the Christmas holiday in my hometown.  Every time i set foot in that city it looks like its three times the size it was the previous visit.   There's always a neighborhood to see, or a new place to eat at.   More people.  Far more than i care to encounter all at once.  Crowds everywhere. You've all stood in a crowd before i wager, imagine siitting in the mist of one in a chair.  Conversations are flying every which way, "You bought two of them"  "Your sister?"  My head spins, focusing on focusing on focusing is impossible.  My head darts in every direction, wary of every single person.  I sense danger where there is none.  All i know isa everynight in this city someone is murdered.  I am terrified.
    Summer 2012 i will likely return here to live, God be with me.
    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    5:52 pm
    Things i learned this year.
    1. I am a slow writer.  A very slow writer, any deadline i set for my projects will be missed.
    2. There is no half-assing college.
    3. A friendship can be left untouched for three years and be picked up as though no time had passed.
    4. God is everywhere if you look.
    5. I love video games vry much.
    6.I have far more to learn.
    Saturday, October 9th, 2010
    12:45 pm
    Writer's Block: Whatever gets you thru the night

    What is your favorite John Lennon song, and why?

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    "Jealous Guy"  Because i've been able to apply it to my life perfectly at various points.
    Saturday, March 27th, 2010
    8:26 pm
    Scene two of my new play which is now titled Almost Yours.

    Scene two

    We find ourselves now in Jordan’s bedroom. It is oddly sparse for that of a 17-year old. There is a twin size bed up left, and a dresser up right. A desk is center stage. We find Jordan in the company of a friend; this friend sits on the floor in near darkness, never being heard by the audience. Jordan sits at the desk.

     

    Jordan:  I met a girl. Just.  A girl. She thinks I’m interesting. No, I don’t know why, I don’t even know anything about her. We spent a few minutes trying to outthink each other, then we exchanged screen names and she left. I haven’t talked to her since. Ask her out? Are you serious? I was afraid to ask my grandma for a dollar for candy as a kid! Layla, her name is Layla. Yeah it is, beautiful just like her face. I tell ya though; she just might be smarter than me. I have no clue if I can handle it or not.

    There is a brief pause before Jordan jumps up and begins pacing around the room.

    Let’s weigh the pros and cons of this, pro: I’ll have a lot of fun. Oh grow up why don’t you? Con: Social interaction is not my forte.   Listen to me.    I can’t make a science out of this. Human beings don’t conform to predictable patterns and routines. Once you get to know someone you can sort of see how their mind works, but not after a single conversation. Maybe I’m over thinking this. Who am i kidding I am most certainly over thinking this. But I want it; oh Lord do I want it. She is finally a worthy opponent. Did I just say opponent? I meant... I meant opponent. Is the entirety of my life focused on finding an antagonist? Crazy? No I don’t think it is, I sit around all day immersed in index cards and Venn diagrams gaining knowledge, obtaining answers. I’m never challenged, I’m never contradicted. Everything is clear-cut and simple. I don’t get that sort of closure from this girl. She is the only block that has ever crossed my path or my mind. I think I need that.   I think. That’s it; I crave adversity, real human conflict. But wait, aren’t these terrible reasons to get involved with someone on such a level? Why should I use this girl to fill some ridiculous need I’ve created for myself? Yes, I know I’m right thank you. But I’d rather be wrong. This conversation is a pointless exercise. No matter what, pros, cons or moral dilemmas I impose on this, I don’t know this girl: and thankfully she doesn’t know me.   I probably won’t even talk to her again for a while. 

    Layla appears on stage at this point and stands right in front of Jordan whose friend has gone offstage by the end of the last speech. The following dialogue is meant to represent an instant messaging conversation, how this effect is achieved can be left to the director’s vision.

     

    Layla: Hey.

    Jordan: Hi, is this Layla?

    Layla: It is.

    Jordan: How are you this eve?

    Layla: This eve? What, are we in a Shakespeare play now?

    Jordan: I was thinking more of a Dickens story.

    Layla: I’m not really a fan of either one.

    Jordan: Shame.

    Layla: Why is that?

    Jordan: Because if you can’t appreciate where the literary world has been you couldn’t possibly be a worthwhile critic of where it is currently at.

    Layla: Shakespeare and Dickens aren’t the only important writers of the past you know.

    Jordan: Says you.

    Layla: Closed-minded then I see.

    Jordan: No, just right.

    Layla: That was a joke right?

    Jordan: No.

    Layla: Oh.

    There is a pause, as long a pause as the actors feel comfortable taking.

     

    Jordan: So what are you up to?

    Layla: Knitting.

    Jordan: Knitting and typing?

    Layla: I have no problem with a slow pace. How about yourself, what are you doing?

    Jordan: Listening to music.

    Layla: What sort of music tickles your fancy?

    Jordan: The Beatles or anything rooted in folk music, and you?

    Layla: Everything really.

    Jordan: Oh, come on that’s a cop-out. Do you listen to Yoko Ono or Ravi Shankar?

    Layla: No.

    Jordan: Then you don’t listen to everything now do you?

    Layla:  Touché. I love boy bands.

    Jordan: Seriously?

    Layla: Yes. What?

    Jordan: Boy bands started the music scene on the downward spiral it’s currently taking.

    Layla: Disagree.

    Jordan: I suppose music falls into the category of things we haven’t in common.

    Layla: Indeed.

    Jordan: Favorite movie?

    Layla: Bring It On.

    Jordan: Good God, why?

    Layla: By looking at those characters I’m reminded that I am an intelligent human being, so far from moronic.

    Jordan: Seriously?

    Layla: No, cheerleaders fascinate me though.

    Jordan: Do tell.

    Layla: I can’t imagine getting that excited about anything for real, let alone, pretending.

    There is a pause in the chat once again now as both of them ponder the strange turn of this conversation and the implications of that last statement.

     

    Jordan: May I ask you a serious question now?

    Layla: You may.

    Jordan: What is your family like?

    Layla: Only child, no father worth speaking of. A mother whose mind isn’t nearly what it used to be, at least that’s what I’m told. She has been this way as far back as I can remember.

    Jordan: What happened?

    Layla: If I knew I’d tell you.

    Jordan: Who do you live with now?

    Layla: My aunt and uncle, decent, intelligent people. If perhaps perpetually surprised by the presence of me in their home.

    Jordan: They didn’t fight for custody of you then?

    Layla: Well, yes but I lobbied for them to do so for at least a year beforehand.

    Jordan: I see. That’s an interesting story if you don’t mind me saying so.

    Layla: Say away.

    Jordan: Are you alright?

    Layla: Fine. What about you, do you have a story?

    Jordan: I do, pedestrian as it is. Two parents still more or less happily married. I am the middle child, the only one still in the nest. I’ve never had any huge problems, even by teen standards. I jump wildly between studious and lazy. Nearly flunked the 6th grade you know?

    Layla: Why?

    Jordan: It wasn’t a challenge worthy of my time.

    Layla: You knew that then?

    Jordan: No, but I’ll take the lie to my grave, or at least to my master’s degree.

    Layla: Clever, or something resembling it anyway.

    Jordan: I thought so.

    Layla: I’m sure you did.

    Jordan: So, best guess how long do you think we can go on feeling each other out before we try a date?

    Layla: Is that your way of asking me out then?

    Jordan: Depends on what your answer would be.

    Layla: Two weeks.

    Jordan: What?

    Layla:  We wait two weeks to decide whether or not we should go on a date.

    Jordan: I fail to see the logic.

    Layla: This is our second conversation in two days, two weeks gives us at least 14 more. Ample time to find we aren’t meant to be before real emotion gets involved.

    Jordan: You’ll forgive me if I find that just a little crazy.

    Layla: I will?

    Jordan: Yes, for one thing because real emotion is already involved: The emotion being fear.

    Layla: I’m not afraid of anything.

    Jordan: Except me, liking me I mean. Here’s a question, have you ever had a boyfriend before.

    Layla: I have. A few more questions like that and you’ll ruin this.

    Jordan:  How do you figure?

    Layla: Just trust me.

    Jordan: Hmm. One more question?

    Layla: If you insist.

    Jordan: Would you like to go on a date with me?

    Layla: (After a moment) Yes.

    Jordan: A movie this weekend?

    Layla: Too easy. We’ll never find any chemistry in a dark quiet theatre. We’ll walk the mall, talk and see what happens ok?

    Jordan: Do I really have a choice?

    Layla: What do you think?

    Jordan: I think I’m just a little afraid of where this is going.


    Saturday, March 6th, 2010
    12:22 am
    The first scene of a play i've been working on..i'm really proud of this...thoughts?

    Be Mine Forever? (Working title)

    By Aaron Buitron

    Draft 1

    June 8, 2009

    Act One Scene One

     

     

     

    The curtain rises to reveal a school library; it could be set up any number of ways as long as there is a table dead center and a desk up stage left. At the table we find Jordan Mabry, he is seventeen and for once in his life completely immersed in his work. He sits studying index cards and muttering quietly to himself. Seated at the desk is Layla Stewart. She is also seventeen with a very pretty face; we are unaware of this at the moment because a book hides everything, save her eyes. We watch them go about their business for a long while in silence. Slowly we see Layla’s head rises slightly over her book. She peers at Jordan biting her lip. She quickly hides her face again just as Jordan turns. They go on like this for a while until Jordan finally catches her looking, he smiles, as does she. 

     

     

    Jordan. (Quietly) Hi.

    Layla. (The same volume) Hi.

    Every light on the stage goes out except two spots for each of the characters. These lights stay trained on them for an unnaturally long time as they stare at one another. Then the moment passes, the lights come up and they return to their work.

    Jordan. (Looking at his cards again) Hmm.

     We hear Layla humming softly some song of new found love. Perhaps “Blueberry Hill” by Fats Domino or The Beatles “I’ve Just Seen a Face” The lights slowly fade to black on her as we listen to her hum. This leaves a single spot on Jordan. He sits alone again lost in work, This is until Layla appears out of the darkness from left.

    Layla. Mind if I join you?

    Jordan :( Not looking up) No.

    Layla: (Sitting beside him) I'm Layla!

    Jordan: (Gazing down still) Jordan.

    There is silence now; it is brief as far as clocks are concerned.

     

    Layla: Not bothering you am I?

    Jordan: (Looking at her at last) No, but keep trying. (He gazes down again

    Layla: (Somewhat confused by the direction of this conversation) So, got a favorite TV show?

    Jordan: Don't watch TV, I don't like it.

    Layla: (Surprised yet interested) Why?

    Jordan: Who wants to look at a box filled with someone else's daydreams?

    Layla: Someone looking to find another person who dreams in the same colors?

    Jordan: ( Looking up again surprised to find his own mind matched) What did you say your name was again?

    Layla: Layla.

    Jordan: (With a smile) Pretty name.

    Layla: Smart and charming then?

    Jordan: If I’m lucky. What's your story?

    Layla: I'm 17 and a junior. Anything else you'll have to find out for yourself.

    Jordan: So you project mystery huh? There must be a reason for that.

    Layla: We’re not getting anywhere this way.

    Jordan: Where is it you want to go?

    Layla: Deeper into your mind, isn't that obvious?

    Jordan: Not to me. You know, this conversation started out so simply.

    Layla: Doesn't everything?

    Jordan: Maybe.

    There is a pause, much more comfortable than the last.

    Layla: Can we go back to being kids a second?

    Jordan: Fair enough.

    Layla: I think I like you.

    Jordan: I might feel the same.

    Layla: Got a phone?

    Jordan: Don't use it. A screen name is the best I can do.

    Layla: Fine. So what is it?

    Jordan: (Grabbing paper and writing) Contemplated Responses. Clever, no?

    Layla: (With a cheesy grin taking the paper) No.

    Jordan: So what's yours?

    Layla: You'll find out.

    Jordan: Being mysterious again?

    Layla: No, just wouldn't want to be unprepared for a conversation with you.

    Jordan: Hmmm, intimidated huh?

    Layla: Not at all, just intrigued.

    Jordan: I can work with that.

    Layla: You're pretty confident aren't you?

    Jordan: For now.

    Layla: It's strange, we've been talking all this time and we haven't learned anything about each other.

    Jordan: Too many answers not enough questions.

    Layla: (Quickly) Favorite Color.

    Jordan: Blue.

    Layla: Favorite food.

    Jordan: Steak

    Layla: Paper or plastic?

    Jordan: What?

    Layla: For bags.

    Jordan: Bags?

    Layla: Bags

    Jordan: Paper, it hides things.

    Layla: Do you?

    Jordan: Yeah there's a candy bar in my backpack, don't tell anyone.

    Layla: Ha-ha! Alright, so when you aren't working or instant messaging what do you do?

    Jordan: Think.

    Layla: What about?

    Jordan: Everything, too much for too long.

    Layla: You should relax.

    Jordan: Why is that?

    Layla: The more you think the less you do.

    Jordan: That...sounds like something out of a fortune cookie.

    Layla: Don't like Chinese food.

    Jordan: Doesn't alter the fact.

    Layla: Haha. You amuse me.

    Jordan: That's a start.

    Layla :( Getting up) Yes, a start indeed.

    Jordan: So we'll talk later?

    Layla: (As she goes offstage) If I feel like it yeah.

    Jordan: Hmm.

    Blackout


    Tuesday, February 16th, 2010
    3:19 am
    Been a while since i really updated.  So for those who don't know i'm not in college anymore.  I fucked up.  Which led to some things that forced me to drop out.  Don't ask me what i'm  going to do because i don't know.  Life goes on.  My assistant Adam left a couple of weeks ago, God called him elsewhere, i can't argue with that.  I hired Steph to take his place,so far its working out quite well.  I so need the company and the familliarity means that few of my requests surprise her.  I'm the boss, although she's loading me down with sweets so i wonder how much control i really have.  In general life is good, but i worry i'm just ignoring big problems
    Thursday, December 31st, 2009
    1:10 am
    One of my memoir entries
    December 12, 2001
    It is 4AM. . It is way too fuucking early. I am in Rochester Minnesota. Today (Yesterday it feels like to me, seeing as its 4AM) they will cut into my legs to straighten them somehow. Are you terrified? I am. The hospital is cold and uninviting, mo surprise there. A couple of hours pass without my participation, eventually i find myself in a gown sitting in a big room, waiting. I am so hungry. No food since the previous night. Dear God i'm sorry i've forsaken your fruits and vegatables, just give me something. Anyrhing. Oh look a TV. Pick a movie you say? Muppet Christmas Carol please. Don't laugh at me lady, i'll watch what i want how many knives are you putting in your leg today? Oh, zero? Suck it. Time to go they tell me. Instant sobbing. "Mom, we can call this off it isn't too late" a kiss on the forehead and an i love you and off i roll. " What flavor would you like the gas to be?" asks the man with the lullabye drugs. Root beer. Wait. What?  " Smell the root beer" he says as the mask goes my face.  The flavor never kicks in.  "Seven Bridges Road" by the Eagles is playing the radio as i drift off to sleep, i wonder if i'll notice if i die.  I wake up 7 hours later and immediatly puke.  Not dead appearently.  They are rolling me down the hall with my parents and sister by my side.  My sobbing little sister looks at me and asks:  "Is Aaron still gonna be able to take care of me?"  How i maned to remember that i haven't a clue. 
    Next installment the hospital stay
    Saturday, November 21st, 2009
    7:49 pm
    Writer's Block: Get everything you care about, all in one place.

    With so much information on the Web, how do you stay organized online?

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    I bypass stupid questions like this.
    Friday, July 3rd, 2009
    10:36 pm
    my new play a full leng th hopefully..based tightly on reality

     

    Be Mine Forever? (Working title)

    By Aaron Buitron

    Draft 1

    June 8, 2009

    Act One Scene One


     


     


     

    The curtain rises to reveal a school library; it could be set up any number of ways as long as there is a table dead center and a desk up stage left. At the table we find Jordan Mabry, he is seventeen and for once in his life completely immersed in his work. He sits studying index cards and muttering quietly to himself. Seated at the desk is Layla Stewart. She is also seventeen with a very pretty face; we are unaware of this at the moment because a book hides everything save her eyes. We watch them go about their business for a long while in silence. Slowly we see Layla’s head rises slightly over her book. She peers at Jordan biting her lip. She quickly hides her face again just as Jordan turns. They go on like this for a while until Jordan finally catches her looking, he smiles, as does she.


     


     

    Jordan. (Quietly) Hi.

    Layla. (The same volume) Hi.

    Every light on the stage goes out except two spots for each of the characters. These lights stayed trained on them for an unnaturally long time as they stare at one another. Then the moment passes, the lights come up and they return to their work.

    Jordan. (Looking at his cards again) Hmm.

    We hear Layla humming softly some song of new found love. Perhaps “Blueberry Hill” by Fats Domino or The Beatles “I’ve Just Seen a Face” The lights slowly fade to black as we listen to her hum.

    Monday, June 22nd, 2009
    2:59 pm
    I think i finally understand
    Yesterday i sat on youtube watching rugrarts.  Today it was nick at nite promos.  T his strange comforting feeling overcomes me when  i watch these things.  It lets me live in a time when things made sense.  when everything was easy.  i wanna go back there
    Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
    9:55 am
    wanna add to this baby?

    I woke up today against my better judgment and ate a breakfast that belied the meal’s importance. I like pop tarts. The drive to school was uneventful save for the dog that was in fact a deer. The morning classes dragged on in their usual proverbial monotone. And then there she was.

    Monday, March 23rd, 2009
    4:07 pm
    Oh you're intelligent
    Here's some money
    No thanks
    Take it
    No
    Don't you want a bright future?
    Don't give a damn
    You should
    just let me be
    What is all this teaching me
    Monday, February 16th, 2009
    10:38 pm
    I'm running out of steam.  I hate way my legs jump even after i take a pill for it i hate that i can't cuddle with the girl i love without moving every five minutes.  I hate that i miss out on things because there's no ramp.  God can't take my talent i just want my body to be a body not a trap
    Sunday, February 1st, 2009
    9:55 pm
    One for the autobiography..but who would buy it?
    It's a random day in a random year.  I'm in a doctors office for an x-ray on something, my back maybe.  I'm on my crutches standing at the check-in desk.  A man walks in with a cane more stable than me but not at the same time.  He looks like a man you'd see on his porch in a rocking chair with a shotgun.  " IS THIS THE X- RAY ROOM!?" he asks loud enough for my hometown in Texas to hear.  I go sit down with Julie and to my slight dismay this man sits directly across from me.  He looks me over like everyone did in my first day of public school and says, again loudly.  "You're one of Jerry Lewis's boys"  Pardon me dipshit?  "No that's MD sir."  (Fine young man that Aaron Buitron)  "What are you in for?" he asks like we're cellmates at Folsom.  " CP" i answer wishing it could have been non verbal autistic.  " i was in a car accident." Silence help.  "My legs are dead" he continues.  Damn i may as welll have stubbed my toe.  " Ouch" is the reply i choose.  " Not really!" Julie concludes may God have mercy on her soul.  I don't know why people think i wanna talk about it.  I just wanna live my life as if my brain never bled. 
    Tuesday, January 6th, 2009
    11:41 am
    Writer's Block: Prepared Answer

    What is the one question you've always wanted someone to ask you?

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    Do you know how nor mal you are?
    Wednesday, December 24th, 2008
    10:22 pm
    Christmas
    I remember Christmas
    Sunshine blue skies
    Grandpa's Santa hat
    Aunt Laurie's mashed pototoes that shouldn't exist
    A new beatles calendar from gradma i didn't really need but cherished
    Everything i wanted as though i deserved it
    Years turn around i wasn't ready
    oh well you gave me other treasures 
    Thank you time but fuck you all at once

    Tuesday, December 16th, 2008
    9:51 am
    Come to me
    I need to be with you i know you don't wanna be with kaitlyn and me..but i really need to see you and be with you..beg your aunt to bring you..even meet me at the door if you're willing..i need to feel you nothing else will matter if i can just feel you again today..i can't wait..please...
    Friday, December 5th, 2008
    2:11 pm
    Oh great....
    So i'm taking the SAT tomorrow for those that don't know and i get extended time( not that i need it).  Cool right? No.  What that means is if i finish before i'm "supposeed to" on a section i can't keep working for TWO HOURS after.... so without question i'll be there from 8 untill 2 tomorrow.  I've never been so angry in all my life.  I want Chantilly. 
    Friday, November 21st, 2008
    2:13 pm
    A short story in the afternoom



    You've heard all those cliches about falling in love right?  Time stops and you know at that moment she's the angel that'll share your name.  No.  I didn't find that at all.  All i saw was a pretty girl walking past me in the hall.  Normal like me( What?) and pretty, she stood out above the rest without trying.  Or even wanting to by any stretch.
    "Hi!" she said as though we'd met.  I returned the greeting as i would to anyone, but it had a little more in it than usual.  A few more of these epically ordinary meetings followed.  But then more communication took place, i soon learned her name my soul taking the same cue, then came purposeful meetings, soon we had to be so close when talking that our lips excluded us from the conversation.  Love slipped in like a teen past curfew and never left.  Now she is my very breath.

     

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